Bi-Polar

Am I bi-polar?

Yeah, you know it

One day I'll scream

The next won't even show it

I doubt you'll understand me

When I'm so unhappy

You'll call me emo

Call me sappy

Call my romantic

Go ahead, sedate me!

It's not what you think

It's not what I said

It's not what crosses my mind when I lay in bed

I'm just as humanly human as human can be

Don't laugh, I'm not Seuss, as much as I try to be

Crazy, I'm screaming

It got into me

The pain and fear

It never should have been there

It got the best of me

The panic took over

And it ran its course

I was dying

and living

and I was lying

but mostly lied to

I bought it hook, line and sinker and it pulled me under

Drowning in self

Lost to my sin

The devil, he saw me and sank his teeth in

I struggled and wriggled and tried to get loose

But the tempter still held me as friends screamed things like: "Moose!"

So I died in my sleep and was raised to new life

Read the only book worth repeating and it saved me from strife

I rejoiced in the Spirit as it flooded my veins

I was back to myself, the new man I became

So I'm happy and happy as happy can be

Because I'm winning the battle that's raging in me

So if you see that I'm down then back up again

It's not that I'm emo, or drink too much gin

And when you see me and ask "are you bi-polar today?"

I'll smile and "not really" will be all that I'll say.