Apology II

Well, that was interesting…

So, the thing about who I am and the modern invention of the webernet is that you all get to see the good and the bad. I think that on a fundamental level that’s important. But I don’t want you all to get the wrong idea.

For all those who may read this that I don’t know, I’m not a guy that just randomly flies off the handle at 8^th century monks. In retrospect, a line from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix comes to mind: “I just get so angry all the time!” That’s how I was feeling the other day. But as Sirius Black responds to Harry as he is wondering he is really evil, he comes very close to quoting Batman: “It’s is what we do that defines us.” (for the record, this is VERY characteristic of me, quoting movies to get my point across.)

I want what I do to have meaning and purpose. I want to really get angry about stuff sometimes, but not arbitrarily. I want to let people know what I am passionate about, but taking it out on monks that many people have never heard of before is just not how to do it.

As a little aside, I really want to get my motto tattooed on my right forearm. Just three words: “Truth With Love.” If nothing else, I want to have the reminder emblazoned upon my skin, so that everytime I see it, it will become engraven in my soul. Now that I think on it… THAT is what I am most passionate about! “Truth with love.” There is so much in the Scriptures that I want to convey and tell others, and there is so much hate spreading through the modern American church. It’s either tolerance or passivism. (I’m not saying that this is EVERYONE, but by and large it is the norm.) The two camps of love and truth are seemingly engaged in an endless war. But they are not mutually exclusive. Nor should you only have one or the other. If you are all fire and brimstone, no one will listen to the truth you have. And if you are all sappy, sweet mush… you have no truth to speak to those that are listening.

So that is more likely something I should swear about… not old British monks. Please forgive me. Which causes are worth fighting for the kingdom? I’m still working on that one. Please bear with me as I learn what hills are worth dying on.

Many thanks,

JSTT

Jump Start Your Heart

(EXPLANATION: There is nothing that I despise more than apathy, complacency and willful ignorance of others feelings in the name of 'love.' I see this EVERYWHERE. In the modern church, we either have our rules which mean nothing, or we have our love without reason. In the modern world, we are called to tolerate anything in the name of 'love.' That word has been so grievously abused, it must be reinvented by God's standards. But first... we must jump start the world's heart.)

I've been galvanized
I've been cauterized
The wounds only mended my soul
The burns only sealed up the hole

Why am I here?
Do I need to move on?
But I'm here for a reason
And I've been waiting too long
To fulfill my purpose
To destroy your bliss
I'm getting out the defibrillators
I'm going to jump start your heart

I've been bleeding
I've been seething
But now I'm going from potential to kinetic
I'm going to stop being so pathetic

Why am I here?
There must be an end
Why do I hurt?
So I can make the world bend
I'm going to fulfill my purpose
I'm correcting what's amiss
I'm getting out the defibrillators
I'm going to jump start your heart

You preach love
You preach apathy
But sometimes you need to get angry
Before you can be happy

I'm here to burn it down
So we can begin again
Soon we'll be reborn
So let's begin
I'm going to fulfill my purpose
I won't let this be dismissed
I'm getting out the defibrillators
I'm going to jump start your heart

I'm going to rock your world
I'm going to beat it down
I'm going to make life grow
Where it wasn't before
I'm going to jump start your heart

Wake Up! (New War)

Sorry, but this has been bottled up for far too long
Pardon me while I sing this song
I'm going to swear a blue streak
Maybe then you'll listen when I speak
I've never felt so justified
I've never felt so right
You stand like stone, petrified
While I scream with all my might

>>>>>WAKE UP!!!!!!!
WAKE UP< WAKE UP< WAKE UP!!!!!!!!
YOU'RE DEAD AND YOU'RE KILLING OTHERS
CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE WORLD
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE EARTH
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE CHURCH
CAN'T YOU SEE?????????

Good morning!
I hope you die
Until you see the carnage that you've left
Look up at the sky
You don't feel, don't hurt, don't breathe
You just keep eating like an infectious disease

I've never felt so justified
I've never felt so right
But you still stand, planning our demise
So I'll scream with all my might

>>>>>WAKE UP!!!!!!!
WAKE UP< WAKE UP< WAKE UP!!!!!!!!
YOU'RE DEAD AND YOU'RE KILLING OTHERS
CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE WORLD
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE EARTH
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE CHURCH
CAN'T YOU SEE?????????

I've never felt so passionate
I've never felt so adamant
About justice
About the righteous
About how wrong you are
About this brand new war
About the brand new war
About this new war

I've never felt so justified
I've never felt so right
But you're still playing with our lives
I will make known our plight

>>>>>WAKE UP!!!!!!!
WAKE UP< WAKE UP< WAKE UP!!!!!!!!
YOU'RE DEAD AND YOU'RE KILLING OTHERS
CAN'T YOU SEE
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE WORLD
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE EARTH
WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO THE CHURCH
CAN'T YOU SEE?????????